Wednesday, January 29, 2014 – 12:59am

Andrea will hate herself for a long time after her mother rubs her nose in dog urine. This was a very upsetting time. Little girls can become suicidal. These are the things that make children hate themselves. It's very upsetting. Andrea's mother is not a very nice woman. She has put Andrea through a lot of hell. Andrea has gone through a lot of problems. It's getting very upsetting. Andrea would have liked to have had a family. Her mother has gotten in the way. Her mother isn't very nice to her and causes her lots of grief. Andrea doesn't have much she can do about that. It destroys her life.

'I want! Me!'

This is one of Monica's jokes. Monica doesn't understand that Andrea thinks she's a loser. Andrea finds Monica pathetic because she seems like one of those girls who is lacking in independence and just wants to be part of a crowd. Andrea finds her kind of cheap and very, very tacky. People don't say 'Hopefully me!' to 'Fuck who?' when they have a boyfriend. Andrea doesn't really respect Monica. She doesn't know what to do. It's like having a horrible person psychically attached to you. Andrea is trying to understand this. It really hurts inside. Andrea wanted to have a life until she started having these perceptions. Andrea was pretty happy to feel comfortable going out to some stores. It would have been nice to enjoy her life and not have to be treated bad. Her mother wouldn't let her have that. Her mother always had to act like a big bitch. Any chance to hurt Andrea's feelings. This was a fucking bitch of a mom. This was a horrible parent to have got. It would have been nice to enjoy my life. She would want to enjoy her life. She makes sure that Andrea doesn't enjoy her life. There is nothing to enjoy when your mother treats you really bad. She justifies her harsh treatment by blaming everything on her dad. Andrea will not understand this and it will not be very good. 

Andrea's mother doesn't understand that she didn't need to have a child. She didn't need to have a child and she really didn't deserve to have one. There were plenty of people who would have enjoyed having a child. Andrea would have had a nice home. Her mother kept her because she is a bitch. Andrea could have had a better life. You don't want to admit that to yourself. You took away everything she could have had. She could have had a nice backyard. She could have had some fun. She could have had some happiness. She could have had some love. Her mother kept her because she is selfish. Her mother didn't know what to do. She didn't deserve to have a daughter. She didn't deserve to have a child. Andrea will never want to be your daughter and she's beginning to feel really sad thinking about what life could have been like. What life could have been like.

'I really don't want to admit to myself.'

Monica doesn't understand that she is a lot like Andrea's mother in terms of how selfish she is. They are not very understanding. They don't understand anybody but themselves. Andrea's mother doesn't help her daughter. She expects her daughter to help her. She ruins every moment of Andrea's  life and act like it's all in fun. Andrea cannot stand her mother. She is a horrible parent to have.

'I want you to hate Andrea.'

That was what might have been said. That was what she said. She is a horrible mother.  She is a horrible mother. She is a horrible mother. She is a horrible mother. She is a horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible mother. Andrea hates her as much as she can, but it's hard because Andreas is a sympathetic person. She didn't deserve her daughter. She didn't deserve her daughter. She didn't deserve her daughter. She didn't deserve her daughter. She didn't deserve. She didn't. And she is a hateful woman. She is a hateful woman. She is a miserable human being and she doesn't want to admit it. She wants to be able to preach. She can't understand anything and she never gives anything a chance. She isn't a very nice person. She isn't a very nice mother.