5 February 2014 at 17:59

Andrea is feeling a little bit of pain. She doesn't want to start screaming again. These energies are very upsetting and this screaming has gone on since the spring. Andrea will know it wasn't happening back in Deep Quong. Andrea thinks it might be because she opened up her throat chakra. Bouts of shouting aren't uncommon with kundalini energy. Andrea will like living better once she can get past all of this. This is moving on to a new life. this is moving onto a new life. Andrea is moving onto a new life. She is not wanting to be part of their world. She doesn't really understand why she has this perception. There is somebody who is blocking her. This will not be very easy and it's going to take a little bit of hate. Hate is what her mother gave her. Hate is what her mother gave her. Hatred for Christmas, but it won't be that obvious. It will be a bit painful. Andrea hates it when she looks attractive.


'I really don't want to admit to myself that you would get hurt because you look attractive.'


'I want it to be that you hate people who are attractive.'


'I want it to be that you hate us because you are a loser.'


This is something Andrea is trying to get around. It would be very difficult to have a painful feeling. Aries is not going to like that. This is a woman who really wants to be herself. They do not like to get advice. This is a very willful astrological sign and they would really hate someone who tries to give them advice. But, she can take advice from some people if she thinks they are very intelligent. This is a very tricky balance and it is a very interesting concept. If Aries is a soldier and somebody tries to give them an order they might follow it, but it has to be in rank. This is an idea that we could think of about an Aries. An Aries is a soldier and they are governed by the planet of war. This would be Mars. Mars is a planet which is about aggression, physical activity, and also other things. Aries can be thought of as an intelligent sign for the reason that it governs head. It does govern the head and that is how it works.


'I want it to be that she hates herself.'


'I don't really want to think about it.'


'I want it to be that you hate yourself.'



'This is not really why I am here. I am here because I hate you and I want to find out what you're saying. I want to find out what's going on and I want to be able to read it. I don't really want to be friends with you, but I want to be able to call you a bitch. I want to find out the negative things you are saying. I want to be able to look down on you. I want to be able to judge you. I'm not very happy when you are doing better.'

This is what's freaking Andrea out. Andrea would really like to do better with her life. She really doesn't want to think of this as a psychiatric issue and she would like to start taking it from a different angle. This is why she is doing this. She wants me to help her and she thinks it's easier if I explain. This is one of the most confusing things for a lot of people. They will come here and read this and expect Andrea to be writing it. Andrea is only copying out what I am saying. She's copying out everything word for word. We are doing something that's hard to explain to a lot of people. Andrea is going to trust my guidance. I've told her that it will be done in 52 days. She is going to take my word for this and assume that is going to be difficult for her to complete other tasks until she gets past this.


'I really want it to be that she's stupid. I want it to be that she's not very talented. I want it to be that she won't ever make anything of her life. I want it to be that she can't accomplish anything. I like the idea that she's a loser. I like the idea that she's fat. I don't really want her to go out to the gym. I don't really like the idea that she's making changes. I want to be able to read what she's posting and I'm getting a little bit angry when she does well. I want to see her fail. I want to see her lose. I want it to be that she's a bad person and she can't ever make more of her life because she's stupid. I really want that. I don't want it to be that she's going to move on with her life. I want it to be that she gets hurt. I want it to be that she has a miserable existence. I want it to be that she's really upsetting. I want everybody to really hate her. I really want that. I don't want it to be that she gets to have a life. I don't want her to have a life. I want it to be that she hates herself. I want her to stay home and eat chips. I want her to get really plump. I want her to lose. I want her to lose. I want her to lose.'


That's why Andrea is having so many problems. Andrea has a number of people who are working against her and it's causing a burning pain in her heart. Andrea doesn't know how to get around this and it's inhibiting everything she does. She can sit here and have a lot of energy attacking her. She might feel better if she does something unflattering and then she will be attacked by the other camp. This is a horrible situation in and Andrea understands what she wants. Andrea wants to be doing yoga and getting to the work she has outlined for herself in her book.


'I want it to be that she doesn't really do anything. I want it to be that she just sits around. I want it to be that she hates herself. I want it to be that she likes eating. I really want it to be that she's lazy. I like the idea that she can't get a date. I really don't like the idea that men harass her. I want it to be that she's a big loser. I don't want it to be that she's a nice girl. I want it to be that she's a bad person. I want it to be that she was harassing Andrew. I want it to be that she was this fat girl who was chasing after Andrew. I want it to be that she wasn't good enough. I want it to be that he didn't really like her. I want it to be that she's a big shit. I want her to be a big piece of crap who nobody likes. An ugly person who doesn't have any social skills. Somebody who we didn't want to be bothered with. I want her to be a big loser. I don't want her to move on with her life.'


Do you understand how much pain you've caused?


'I don't want to admit that it's painful. I want to think that she's a stupid person. I want to be able to put her down. I want it to be that she eats all the time. I want it to be that she's addicted to junk food. I want it to be that she doesn't do anything to help herself. I want it to be that she's a big loser. I want it to be that she could never take care of herself. I want that. I don't want her to be able to look after herself. I don't want her to be able to take care of herself. I don't want it to be that she could keep her apartment clean. I don't want it to be that she knows how to look after herself. I want it to be that she's a big loser. I want it to be that she doesn't deserve anything. I want it to be that she doesn't need anything. I want it to be that she doesn't need a family. I want it to be that she doesn't need a life. I want! I want! I want! Me! Me! Me!'


A lot of people don't really want their daughters to do very well.


'I like the idea that she doesn't need love.'


This is how mean her mother is. Mother hates daughter. Daughter has nothing. Daughter tries very hard. Daughter tries very, very, very hard. Love is not happy. Mommy knocks. Knock down. Knock down. Knock down. Knock down. Knock down. Knock down. And if you do it about 50 times it will really begin to get to a person. If you hurt your daughter that many times she will kill herself. This is one thing that people don't understand. Verbal abuse causes suicidal behavior. Any questions? Do you want to abuse people? Do you want to abuse people? Do you want to knock Andrea down? Do you want to kill Andrea? Do you want to kill her? Do you want to make sure she can't have children? Do you want to make sure she can't have a little bit of a love life? Do you want to make sure she doesn't feel lovable? Do you want to think you are a very nice mom? Do you want to think you did a good job because your daughter hates living? Killing your daughter. Killing your daughter. Killing your daughter. Killing your daughter. Killing your daughter. Killing your daughter. Killing your daughter. Killing your daughter. your daughter has killed herself. That's for Christmas. See, this is how bad it is. this is how bad.


'I really don't want it to be that. I don't want it to be that Andrea hates her mother for killing her.'


Killing her. This would be killing a person. You want to kill your daughter. You want to kill your daughter. You want to kill your daughter. you want to kill your daughter. She should never have been born. She should have been given up for adoption. She should have been given up for adoption. She should have been given away. Love is not like this. This is very hurting. There is a lot of pain right now. You type and type and type. You want to think you're smart because of all the hurtful things you did. You made sure your daughter couldn't have a life. You did this through verbal abuse. You hurt your daughter very much. You didn't want her to make very many friends. You made her feel low self-confidence. You told her none of the kids would like her. You made her feel unlikable. you made her feel like a piece of shit. She didn't have a very happy childhood, but you want her to pretend that she did. You slapped her across the face for putting a knife up against her wrist. You didn't really love her. She was kind of like a plaything and you never bothered talking to her. You never understood her. You didn't really listen to her. You didn't bother listening to her because there was too much going on on television. You didn't take the time to understand her and you didn't take the time to let her have a life.


'I thought it was a good time.'

You never went through any of that. You hurt your daughter for a long time and you held onto her when she was a teenager. You tried to suffocate her out of her teens. Well, it might not have been that bad.


'I really hate the fact that she lived that way.'

You don't want to admit that Andrea needs you to leave. Nobody will kick you out of Facebook, but you have made sure that Andrea can't come out to The Ossington. This was a very sabotaging thing.


'I don't really want to admit that it was. i don't want to think about what your life might have been if i had just never been part of it.'


Andrea really wants you to leave her page.


'I want it to be that I can read it.'


We are going to try again to go through the entire friends list and see if there is anything we can find. Andrea deleted a few people, but she will not feel reassured yet. this energy keeps holding on and it's not a very positive feeling


'I really want it to be that I can look at this.'


It's time for you to stop looking at this profile. We are going to look for you and the initials are going to be 'I' & 'N'. In. Like the word In. We are going to find you and Andrea will do it tonight. this will take a little bit of time and it won't be very easy. Andrea will not understand this, but you are hiding in the friends list. You are hiding in the friends list and we can't merely just search for you. We have to go through the entire list and you will be down near the very bottom.


'I want it to be that she won't find it. I want it to be that it can stay there. I want it to be that she won't find it.'


It's about to be found.


'Okay. I guess it's done.'


And you can both move on with your lives. All the time Andrea hates this energy and is distracted by it is time that you are wasting.